I am always in awe of the unearned trust I place in people.
A "friend drops by" unannounced from California. Happy to see him I allow him to stay. We've always have had our ups and downs as friends; him being a angry faggot and me being a disrespectful fag-hag, but with my forgiving heart and his need to have someone in this world, we've managed to stay friends. I entrusted him to go to the check cashing place and get another money order because I was broke. He did it and gave me what I asked for. We went to sleep and he said he'd put it under my mattress. Next day, I didn't check and he said that he was going to Mac.Donald's to use the internet. Fine. I check for my "medicine" (which was under my mattress also) and where the new money order ($746.00) should have been and neither are there. I've e-mailed and called several times and no response. I don't and cannot afford to accept this as a loss because I have no way to replenish it. I am now fearful and fucked. This is why trust is not an option for me. Only in the Lord.
